THE Fucking Shit (PDF Download)
Unfinished and canned in 2019. Re-rolled for the Great Australian World Shitpaper Crisis of 2020.
“THE Fucking Shit” was a production from the 2019 Flame Zone Dream Build mission to the edge. Beginning as a grand exit mic drop testament, it’s an attempt to create a stream of consciousness in a scorching flow so devastating it’s pyroclastic. It references a bit of shit, like you know, rhyming Ghostface Killah from “Bring Da Ruckus” with the “Book of Daniel” (Who does that shit?)
It rolled to where it needed to be and got a final flush on 1/11/2019 with a posting to Facebook with the comment “Might be all she wrote.” She was just getting warmed up. It took the next ‘TP Download’ uploaded on 9/12/2019 to really make some serious hot shit happen.
Anyhows, the mish got done and dusted. So shit got canned. It’s on the shelf for the 2019 FZDB memoir.
Eat it up. They’re desperate for it down under (and the hole world?)
Lost and Found in the land of the Dreamtime…
THE Fucking Shit (PDF Download)
Facebook Post 31/10/2020
Trick or treat?
The “2020 Reroll” of “THE Fucking Shit” is basically the “1/11/2019 Version” with a bit of shit removed, mainly the following vent of fire…
So here I sit alone on the edge of a rock ready and set to fly away forever killing time at The End of Times Is that my problem? Is it just me and my reality? Shall we see? Jesus fucking Christ You people So how you goin’? Yeah, I hear you Your silence speaks volumes Volumes of shit I know how you goin’ I see you I been watching paying attention for over 25 years now I had you all figured out from the start So I just kept on keepin’ it really real And you always go the way I know you’re gonna go But now I have to hand it to you You got me beat I was wrong Lyin’ to myself not thinkin’ right Trying to believe in something ridiculous I confess I deceived myself with foolish thoughts Lost in hope that by this time I could find somewhere in the world someone or some people offering some reason to believe that there be something in this shit show worth stickin’ around for I kid you not Yeah, I have been waiting For a hero to whom I can give it up and pay it forward I been looking for a long time It gets me down I know too much And y’all are so far off Below me I see what I can’t help without help from above and my mind blazes with ideas Lord knows I tried with heart and soul I sure pushed the fuckin’ envelope to the next level to be my own hero So I can die free without regret I rule my reality for that which is above myself Universal Truth on Earth from my position as a member of a colony of my species I support my civilisation and the material advantages it provides my existence I am not an environmentalist and I stand against individualistic solutions because they perpetuate the deficiencies and the complications of the social and the political systems that are the cause of humanity’s failures which are the aberrations against nature I have been sent here to destroy In some form Life on Earth will survive the story of homo sapiens You will not Your children will die in a world of human waste in an escalating tragedy Whether anybody manages to survive to evolve beyond this situation is dependent upon successful realisation of the real force of nature that is human spirituality not as individuals but as social beings And that kids is The Motherfucking Story as told by this half happy hermit So how you goin’? All set for it? Not yet You ain’t got me and it has to be in our physicality I ain’t here to tickle your minds I’ve been built to slay souls and that makes me potentially your defender You are either with me or you are against me It is not my decision I am a pure creation of all your reality And time is up Will The Story live on for you? (Edit point 1/11/2019) (incomplete...continues...)”
So that got chopped because a lot of it was a stream that isn’t fairly representative of the mean of what I channel. Yeah, some real ugly self-pitying crap in there! But I guess it was honest sentiment from that character position. Sure I’d love to see someone come along flying a flag I could salute. There are also some poorly expressed and misleading sociopolitical statements. I am an environmentalist, however I don’t represent as such in a secular political realm. But above all that, what really bugged me was something else.
After travelling to town to post it online on 1/11/2019 I returned to my “Flame Zone Dream Build” camp, Thunderbolt Eagle’s Landing, and began preparations for a journey to the edge and possibly beyond. But that bit of “THE Fucking Shit” that stank had me conflicted and I couldn’t get it out of my nostrils. The truth of the autobiographical reality of saying “I had you all figured out from the start” tormented me. While it is true for me in deeper levels where a confident self-belief has always existed, there is a glaringly obvious place where it falls and burns…Yasmine.
It became fuel for the intense emotional state I wanted to achieve in an attempt to manifest the island volcano eruption for which I was considering sacrificing my physical presence in that reality. I had always intended it to be a “do or die” mission. Some days later an intimidating large and not so distant bushfire forced me to seek another forest in which to camp. I had been visualizing awaiting the flames at one of a few cliff edges which had been previously scouted, but I didn’t have anywhere to hide my car to avoid the possibility of having someone trying to find me. So I boosted.
Eventually I found a place to hide my buggy in another forest (there weren’t many not closed by fire) and mountain biked and hiked to the edge of the abyss. But I couldn’t leave the story there. There was a score to be settled. Big time.
The next thing I posted to Facebook after 1/11/2019 (which is restored to my timeline for this posting) was on 9/12/2019 at exactly 12 noon, 11 minutes before…y’all know the story, right? Yeah, that was 1:11 UTC. Y’all know 111 is the New Zealand emergency number, eh? That was four days after I created TheCUT.rip (Who makes it?).
So anyhows, hope y’all have a real swell COVID-19 Halloween, ‘cause life’s sure as hell goin’ pretty fucking sweet-as ‘round here!
And just for the record, I don’t feel (so I don’t believe) that secular humanist humanitarian solutions constitute…
“successful realisation
of the real
force of nature
that is human spirituality
not as individuals
but as social beings”
So y’all better look out. This beast lives. And he’s on fire with the not stoned cold munchies.
What’s the time?
