THE Fucking Shit (PDF Download)
Unfinished and canned in 2019. Re-rolled for the Great Australian World Shitpaper Crisis of 2020.
“THE Fucking Shit” was a production from the 2019 Flame Zone Dream Build mission to the edge. Beginning as a grand exit mic drop testament, it’s an attempt to create a stream of consciousness “in a scorching flow so devastating it’s pyroclastic.” It references a bit of shit, like you know, rhyming Ghostface Killah from “Bring Da Ruckus” with the “Book of Daniel” (Who does that shit?)
It rolled to where it needed to be and got a final flush on 1/11/2019 with a posting to Facebook with the comment “Might be all she wrote.” She was just getting warmed up. It took the next ‘TP Download’ uploaded on 9/12/2019 to really make some serious hot shit happen.
Anyhows, the mish got done and dusted. So shit got canned. It’s on the shelf for the 2019 FZDB memoir.
Eat it up. They’re desperate for it down under (and the hole world?)
Lost and Found in the land of the Dreamtime…
THE Fucking Shit (PDF Download)
Facebook Post 31/10/2020
Trick or treat?
The “2020 Reroll” of “THE Fucking Shit” is basically the “1/11/2019 Version” with a bit of shit removed, mainly the following vent of fire…
“So here I sit
alone on the edge
of a rock
ready and set
to fly away
forever
killing time
at The End of Times
Is that my problem?
Is it just me
and my reality?
Shall we see?
Jesus fucking Christ
You people
So how you goin’?
Yeah, I hear you
Your silence
speaks volumes
Volumes of shit
I know how you goin’
I see you
I been watching
paying attention
for over 25 years now
I had you all
figured out
from the start
So I just kept on
keepin’ it really real
And you always go
the way I know
you’re gonna go
But now I have to
hand it to you
You got me beat
I was wrong
Lyin’ to myself
not thinkin’ right
Trying to believe
in something ridiculous
I confess
I deceived myself
with foolish thoughts
Lost in hope
that by this time
I could find
somewhere in the world
someone or some people
offering some reason
to believe
that there be something
in this shit show
worth stickin’ around for
I kid you not
Yeah, I have been waiting
For a hero
to whom I can
give it up
and pay it forward
I been looking
for a long time
It gets me down
I know too much
And y’all are
so far off
Below me I see
what I can’t help
without help from above
and my mind
blazes with ideas
Lord knows I tried
with heart and soul
I sure pushed
the fuckin’ envelope
to the next level
to be my own hero
So I can die free
without regret
I rule my reality
for that which is
above myself
Universal Truth
on Earth
from my position
as a member
of a colony
of my species
I support
my civilisation
and the material advantages
it provides my existence
I am not
an environmentalist
and I stand against
individualistic solutions
because they perpetuate
the deficiencies
and the complications
of the social
and the political systems
that are the cause
of humanity’s failures
which are the aberrations
against nature
I have been sent
here to destroy
In some form
Life on Earth
will survive
the story of
homo sapiens
You will not
Your children will die
in a world
of human waste
in an escalating tragedy
Whether anybody
manages to survive
to evolve beyond
this situation
is dependent upon
successful realisation
of the real
force of nature
that is human spirituality
not as individuals
but as social beings
And that kids
is The Motherfucking Story
as told by
this half happy hermit
So how you goin’?
All set for it?
Not yet
You ain’t got me
and it has to be
in our physicality
I ain’t here
to tickle your minds
I’ve been built
to slay souls
and that makes me
potentially
your defender
You are either
with me
or you are
against me
It is not my decision
I am a pure creation
of all your reality
And time is up
Will The Story
live on
for you?
(Edit point 1/11/2019)
(incomplete…continues…)”
So that got chopped because a lot of it was a stream that isn’t fairly representative of the mean of what I channel. Yeah, some real ugly self-pitying crap in there! But I guess it was honest sentiment from that character position. Sure I’d love to see someone come along flying a flag I could salute. There are also some poorly expressed and misleading sociopolitical statements. I am an environmentalist, however I don’t represent as such in a secular political realm. But above all that, what really bugged me was something else.
After travelling to town to post it online on 1/11/2019 I returned to my “Flame Zone Dream Build” camp, Thunderbolt Eagle’s Landing, and began preparations for a journey to the edge and possibly beyond. But that bit of “THE Fucking Shit” that stank had me conflicted and I couldn’t get it out of my nostrils. The truth of the autobiographical reality of saying “I had you all figured out from the start” tormented me. While it is true for me in deeper levels where a confident self-belief has always existed, there is a glaringly obvious place where it falls and burns…Yasmine.
It became fuel for the intense emotional state I wanted to achieve in an attempt to manifest the island volcano eruption for which I was considering sacrificing my physical presence in that reality. I had always intended it to be a “do or die” mission. Some days later an intimidating large and not so distant bushfire forced me to seek another forest in which to camp. I had been visualizing awaiting the flames at one of a few cliff edges which had been previously scouted, but I didn’t have anywhere to hide my car to avoid the possibility of having someone trying to find me. So I boosted.
Eventually I found a place to hide my buggy in another forest (there weren’t many not closed by fire) and mountain biked and hiked to the edge of the abyss. But I couldn’t leave the story there. There was a score to be settled. Big time.
The next thing I posted to Facebook after 1/11/2019 (which is restored to my timeline for this posting) was on 9/12/2019 at exactly 12 noon, 11 minutes before…y’all know the story, right? Yeah, that was 1:11 UTC. Y’all know 111 is the New Zealand emergency number, eh? That was four days after I created TheCUT.rip (Who makes it?).
So anyhows, hope y’all have a real swell COVID-19 Halloween, ‘cause life’s sure as hell goin’ pretty fucking sweet-as ‘round here!
And just for the record, I don’t feel (so I don’t believe) that secular humanist humanitarian solutions constitute…
“successful realisation
of the real
force of nature
that is human spirituality
not as individuals
but as social beings”
So y’all better look out. This beast lives. And he’s on fire with the not stoned cold munchies.
What’s the time?
